Developing It. Not Faking It.

I choose to believe that I am a rich, prosperous, happy entrepreneur in the making. 

You could say I subscribe to the classic commandment, “Fake it till you make it.”

I am in partial agreement with the idea of “faking it” till “I make it.” My belief is that I am almost there, touching, feeling, even smelling the achievement of my Great Goal -to become a successful  media entrepreneur. 

I am not actually faking it, I am building it, indeed.

Certainly, the Great Goal as a whole is, still, an unfinished business. It can't be appreciated to its full extent as much as an unfinished work of art can't elicit any emotional or esthetical response from the beholder, who may look at the shapeless, developing project as a mere collection of meaningless elements -emphasis on meaningless.

The project only makes sense to its author. It is the author who strives to blow life into his creation, a process that usually takes an emotional and financial toll on him. 

Only the author experiences the pangs and fears derived from the creation process. The longer this process takes, the worse the amount of frightening uncertainty.

Naturally, the outside world will tend to look at the author's suffering as pitiable at worst, or something unfathomable at the best. It is this particular feedback from the outsiders that often creates an extra hardship on the aspiring entrepreneur, especially when it involves people he cares about.

It feels like an anvil being thrown down on his shoulders, on top of the heavy weight he already has to carry around.

Yet the artist and the entrepreneur must keep going. Because only the artist and the entrepreneur know why they have to pursue a dream, a vision, a purpose. In discovering why they realize this journey is a lonely and very often misunderstood adventure.